happy!
i realized that i actually have been bitching out this whole time about most everything that’s been happening to me…you might get the impression that i’m living a crappy (for lack of a better term) life…but really i’m not…really…hahaha!
it’s just that i (again) realized that bitching out’s easy…the emotions one feels may be so extreme that words just seem to pour out of one’s mouth, like a faucet running unchecked…and before you know it everything’s out, spiraling down the drain…and one feels so much better once it’s all out…well for me atleast…
but i too get bit weary about bitching out…(that’s an understatement coming from someone who may just be dubbed as the "bitch-out queen")…because one has to be very careful as to who you bitch out to…i am just lucky that i have incredible, solid, great, amazing friends who patiently listen to me when i’m in one of those moods…but then, i do also worry that i may just wear them out from all the bitching out i do…i hope i don’t…or do i? waaah! (sorry!) but i am just really, really thankful for them…i’d go crazy if it weren’t for them incredible, solid, great, amazing friends of mine!
the point is…i am happy, really, even though i bitch out far too many times…i am…it’s just that i find it hard to put into words just how happy i am at times…i just am…
like yesterday, yesterday was a happy day for me…how do i describe how happy i was…i don’t know…but it was…chilling with your bestest friends in the world…talking and laughing about anything and everything under the sun…nothing beats that…happy…it was a happy day!
today was also no exception…waking up early in the morning, doing something productive, going back to dasma, cleaning up my dorm (yup, i do, i enjoy cleaning my dorm!), cozying up with a good book, just looking out beyond the skies and not thinking about anything, chilling out with friends, being greeted with a big hug and smile from gian upon getting home…being thanked for doing the simplest thing…happy…it is a happy day!
so really, even with all the bitch out’s i do (which happens a bit often these days, damn pharma!)…at the end of the day, i still do get to see happiness in the little things that happen to me…and that, i think, is what matters, right?
so let’s all raise our beers (woohoo! see, that’s happiness in a bottle right there!) and cheers to being happy! *cheers! cheers!*
